Books and Abstracts

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Approaching 31 years worth of Lucid Dreaming, here are some reflections and experiences.

For the last 31 years, I have pursued the Art of Lucid Dreaming since the age of fifteen after reading an article in an Omni Magazine published in March, 1987 where Dr. Stephen LaBerge talked about this ability to be conscious during a dream. It was called Lucid Dreaming. As a young teenager, the idea that I could be in control of my dreams was a thrilling idea. My non-lucid dreams were already loads of fun, and I could only imagine how incredible it could be to actually be awake and in control.

Shorty after reading the article, I had my first lucid dream. It was everything the article promised and more. The first of thousands of lucid dreams to follow and now after 31 years I thought it would be a good time to reflect on what I have accomplished and learned through living a second life in the world of dreams.

Why is Lucid Dreaming something one would like to do? Why do we read a book, watch a movie or play a video game? We like to be entertained. At the most fundamental level Lucid Dreaming is a thrilling form of entertainment. Even non-lucid dreams can be wonderfully entertaining. Look at any dream you can remember that left you in awe at what you experienced in that focus state. Now imagine being in control where you can dream anything you desire in that same realistic format. It’s not hard to see that Lucid Dreaming can be both an adventure and an experience.

When I talk about what dreaming is. I first describe it as having your own virtual reality simulator that is more evolved and sensory driven than say our current VR technology like Oculus Rift. Unlike digital virtual reality which offers a visual 3D view, Lucid Dreaming (and dreaming in general) allows you to have a 100% fully immersed sensory driven virtual reality experience. Having practiced this skill along with other techniques to enhance perception in dreams, my dreams for the time that I am there are as detailed and complex as the waking world. I exist in a simulated 3D environment, I can see vivid colors, hear sounds, feel objects and textures, taste and smell food. I even have a sense of heat/cold as well as pain. Through a technique I call cognitive mapping which invokes perception exercises in the waking world for the purpose of enhancing the same skill of perception in the dream world, the end result are dreams that appear as real or more real than how I experience my waking life. This truly is a virtual reality simulator that nature has evolved, and all it takes is consciousness to play.

What this has given me is best of two worlds. I get to be conscious and self-aware in my waking life, and take this quality of self-awareness into a dream reality which extends who I am and add new conscious experiences that I otherwise would never have. Think about this as one of my driving motivators. We all know we are going to live for a relatively short period of time. There is no escaping the inevitability of death so knowing we have a limited amount of time to experience ourself existing, what do we have that adds conscious experience to this limited amount of time? See where I am going? We can add hours of consciousness during sleep in another format of experiential reality adding time to our over all conscious experience pool.

In 31 years of lucid dreaming, I have incubated and cultivated roughly 10 years of consciousness during sleep. Why I estimate roughly 10 years is due to the perception of time during lucidity which can greatly exceed that time when I sleep. And in many cases I have logged these extra hours, even days in my journals. Funny enough I have encountered people who just cannot fathom that this potential exists and call me out claiming I’m lying because almost zero research has been done short of one experiment in 1985 which during the run didn’t provide evidence of time perception being expanded during lucid dreaming.

It is a known fact that the perception of time can stretch under the influence of drugs, hypnosis and surprise surprise… dreams. Neuroscientist Warren Meck tested drug induced time perception on rats and noted that they did have a speed up or slow down of their internal clock based on drug influences. There is also other research such as the Kappa Effect which is another form of temporal illusion where our perception of time in waking life can feel longer than actual physical time.

There is even a desire to create a time dilating drug for prisoners that trap them in this sense of altered time for 1,000 years in 8 hours. http://www.telegraph.co.uk/technology/news/10697529/Prisoners-could-serve-1000-year-sentence-in-eight-hours.html. Psychoactive drugs like LSD, Mescaline and DMT also have people reporting extraordinary perception of time.

My first encounter with the perception of time stretching in my own lucid dreams was back in 1992, 5 years after I started lucid dreaming. It was 8:00am in the morning and I had some time to sleep before I had to go to work. I became dream locked in this dream where the perception of time lasted 2 weeks. Trapped in this pocket of dream time living a second life as an artist going to college and then working at a cafe. I would even wake up and fall asleep in the dream until finally waking up. I was lucid for the whole time knowing I was dreaming but couldn’t wake up from it. When it approached what felt like 2 weeks I started to have the fear and panic that something was wrong, that maybe I am sleeping in or worse something bad happened to my body so I forced myself awake to then look at the clock seeing the time as 8:30am. Only 30 minutes of sleep yet I had an insurmountable amount of time that I could never fit in 30 minutes. Even just one of the art classes took over an hour and I had many of those in just one of the days, let alone the job at the cafe, or hanging out with friends going to pubs and night clubs. All this experience which felt like 2 weeks yet only 30 minutes of sleep. I was hooked on this potential. I saw the possibilities of what it could add to my life and have never looked back.

In many cases it can be just a few extra hours, others a few days but in the rarest the longest I have experienced is 2 weeks. I call them Mini Vacations. That said I have talked with people through the years over the Internet who claim to have lived entire lifetimes in one cycle of sleep. I have not, and have no reason to lie or embellish that I have. My max is 2 weeks and that has only happened a couple of times. The average seems to be extra hours, sometimes up to 8. It’s more common, the ones that last days are also rare but recently I did have one that lasted about 3 days. I just never know what to expect the inevitable wake-up always happens.

I know another conscious practitioner who I respect, and we discussed this ability to perceive more time during sleep than when the body sleeps and their longest experience was 3 months. I haven’t broken the 2 week barrier yet in my own sleep. Quite often this is due to fear as have a hard time allowing it to just continue as my fear is that I might be sleeping too long, or maybe something is wrong and I wake myself up foolishly to check on my body only to find 20 or 30 minutes have past.

I doubt many people know what it’s like to be locked in a dream that goes on and on, like a lengthy false awakening. I personally love it, but I admit defeat at chickening out when it gets too lengthy. This is something you really have to go through multiple times to appreciate it’s potential also why certain understandable fears may arise that can cause you to eject yourself from that dream. Hopefully, I can become more allowing and proficient as I still manage to have very long lucid dreams in short naps.

Why do I believe the 1985 sleep study failed? The lucid dreamers had to use their physical body to move their eyes to count time in the dream. In my view, this is already syncing your perception of time with physical time as you are using a physical mechanic, the eyes to measure time. In my deep lucid dreams, there is 100% immersion and I have no sense of my body lying in it’s bed. The immersion is so deep, that the dream reality for that time is all I know. I believe this deep level of immersion allows the perception of time to stretch as there is no physical constraints applied to the dream in such a case. But how does one measure it? I can imagine perhaps differences in EEG and fMRI scans may review additional activity, perhaps an increased activity.

At this point in my life, I don’t worry about what other people believe rather I’ll figure it out for myself through knowledge gained from actual valid lucid dream experience where I answer my own questions. If I listened to the naysayers when I was 15 that lucid dreaming was impossible and woo, I’d have lost 31 years of amazing adventures. Somethings you just have to do it for real rather than read about it in some book. Lucid dreaming is one of those things you have to experience to know.

Unlike belief which this world is ripe with, lucid dreaming is a genuine experience that one can obtain through focus, practice and discipline. The rewards and potential in my view are endless. It’s a gift that keeps on giving unlike a belief which offers zero experience and no return on investment. A belief isn’t going to make you lucid dream, a belief won’t extend your perception of time. Actually doing it will. That’s the difference. Once you know you can be conscious in a dream, it’s no longer a belief it’s fact. You now have knowledge through experience. Why, because this is something you achieved. No one else can dream your dream, let alone make you conscious in them.

My dream routine of late has been doubling up on lucid dreams per day as I have been using two time periods to incubate lucidity. In the morning I wake up at 4:00am, stay up until 5:00am using WBTB [Wake-Back-To-Bed] and WILD [Waking Induced Lucid Dream] for 15-30 minutes if I fail, I fall back on MILD [Mneumonic Induced Lucid Dream]. If I stick to this method as part of my daily routine I have a lucid dream nearly every night.

If time permits, I try to have a nap at 5:00pm to about 6:30pm for an evening lucid dream using the same technique as listed above. In many cases I can double up on lucid dreaming for the day and for me this is far superior a form of entertainment than anything I have encountered in the waking world. TV, Movies, Video Games, Books are all ok, but I can do better with my dreams having the benefit of total control and ability to create anything I desire in nearly any formatted genre as one of my driving inspirations to dream is using a technique I call Genre Specific Lucid Dreams [GSLD] which I have been perfecting over the last 30 years. Sure, it’s entirely about entertainment and that is exactly what brought me into lucid dreaming at the age of 15.

I’ve been trying to write down the more exciting ones. It makes my dream journal read like an epic Heavy Metal / Sci-Fi / Fantasy movie as not only do I dream in normal waking reality but can create cartoon, video game, movie genres by manipulating the dream through visualization and intent. The dreams I tend to skip over are the more mundane, boring or down right weird.

This is also why many of my dream journal entries can be quite lengthy. And quite often, I am only covering what I liked about the dream omitting plenty of uninteresting mundane content as writing all of it down is vastly time consuming. I get to skip the long moments of say walking down a street, or driving in a car. No way to create that sense of time in the reader and why bore them with the lack of interesting details.

It’s nice to have a dream blog as I hope people who encounter one of the more adventurous dreams see that potential and desire to be able to also achieve that type of dream. When you approach lucid dreaming as an art form where you are the writer, director, content creator and star, it becomes a supreme form of experience and entertainment.

Lucid dreaming has been scientifically proven that we do lucid dream. Today, I find skeptics and atheists who enjoy lucid dreaming. They are able to do it, and enjoy the experience that it brings. There are still skeptics I encounter who don’t believe it which is fine, they haven’t had the experience. I’m not here to convince them but all I can do is offer techniques and my own interpretation of the experience as a motivator for others seeking to do the same or greater with their own dreams.

Even today, our entire culture is so dream illiterate I find very few people who routinely explore and experience lucid dreaming short of through the Internet. I find it sad, because people seem to believe in all sorts of unverifiable ideas yet don’t want to believe in the one thing that provides genuine experience and adds valuable self-awareness and conscious experience to one’s limited lifespan. I always try to get that point across. I add hours of conscious experience to my life by engaging a vividly realistic and fantastically detailed dream reality every night. Even my non-lucid dreams are vividly realistic and also add a value of experience as long as I remember them. I dream every night, it is very rare not to remember any type of dream upon waking.

And the jest of it, most people who I try to open up about with this ability make the stupid mistake of judging me either weird or crazy. I’m weird or crazy because I can remain conscious into sleep, a skill I worked on since 1987 over the last 31 years so I could learn to simulate and create a vivid reality as real as the one I wake up to for hours on end in a format that is better than anything I find in waking life. The food is better, the sex is better, the activity is better, the worlds are endless and it never stops producing amazing experiences that even drugs fail to offer. My attitude in response? Enjoy loosing 8 hour of their life every day until they die where those who engage and participate in their dreams stand to gain 2, 4, 8, days, weeks potentially unknown hours of pure conscious experience every-time they sleep.

In my life, I have had to endure the judgments of others who don’t get it or understand. I’ve been called everything from crazy to weird. The reality is, I can create anything I desire when I sleep. What a terrible and weird thing to be able to do. Who wants to have the power and control to create absolutely any fantasy or desire in a vivid format that is equal to or better than waking reality? Yet they all love movies, books and video games missing out on the one virtual reality simulator nature evolved and they’ve had since birth. I didn’t make that mistake. I engaged it passionately.

I don’t blame them, our modern society has given dreaming a bad rap with such lame claims that dreams are nothing but random noise so every psychologist or researcher cites that as some fact rather than listening to the the ones who actually have some intelligence behind the art of dreaming as a skill. We have the scientific evidence that lucid dreaming exists, it is real. We don’t have to pretend that it doesn’t and ridicule those who engage this art form.

Look at how neglected and shoved to the wayside Lucid Dreaming really is. It took until the late 1970’s to obtain evidence that it was possible to satisfy the skeptics. Prior we had the skeptics claiming this is woo, which really means it will be ignored by the academic circles. Fast forward and through fMRI we have undeniable evidence that people can be conscious during sleep. Wow scientists… took you that long to figure out what people have been doing since before the bronze age. Where has this benefited humanity with knowledge of how to obtain this focus state? Not in the media, not in the schools, still throwing that baby out with the bathwater in 2018.

Sure they teach you how to draw, play a musical instrument, add numbers, do sports in school but I’ve yet to see main stream academia establish a lucid dreaming class that progresses people from child hood up to a master PhD in University in the science and skill of lucid dreaming. Thus no one benefits, most live half their life throwing away the better half. What is it going to take to wake people up to this wonderful skill and ability?

Now we have the Internet and there are pockets of forums and newsgroups that offer information on lucid dreaming. Many websites and authors cropping up but like anything there is good information and bad information mixed in with this simply ability to maintain consciousness during sleep. I think my progressive guide on lucid dreaming embodies the most straight forward tested approach to this experience. Largely in part to the influence of Dr. Stephen LaBerge who I credit for sparking my initiation to this idea back in 1985. He’s been a wonderful influence in my journey.

Thus the choice resides in the individual, it is up to those who want to pursue this ability to make that lifestyle choice and reap the rewards while others lie unconscious in their sleep wasting away potential experience. I guess you don’t know what you miss if you don’t value it.

For me, I enjoy the quality of the experience and the entertainment value. I’ll share some links to some of my more genre specific lucid dreams as I love to recreate fantasy worlds in this vividly real dream format.

Movie Inspired Genre Specific Lucid Dreams:
Star Wars inspired GSLD
http://youaredreaming.org/2017/12/19/star-wars-themed-dream-september-27-2014/
http://youaredreaming.org/2018/01/25/jan-25-2018-family-vacation-deathstar-wild-world-dreams-where/

Game of Thrones
http://youaredreaming.org/2018/01/18/jan-18-2018-game-thrones-lucid-dream-quest-god-slayer/

I was Flash from Justice League
http://youaredreaming.org/2017/11/27/dream-flash-justice-league/

Marvel Infinity Gems / Thanos inspired.
http://youaredreaming.org/2014/06/24/june-24-2014-dream-journal-entry/
http://youaredreaming.org/2018/01/27/jan-27-2018-dream-infinity-stones-marvel-universe-loads-fun/
http://youaredreaming.org/2018/02/20/feb-20-2018-thanos-friends-lucid-dream/

Battling Cthulhu
http://youaredreaming.org/2017/12/19/battled-cthulhu-epic-genre-specific-lucid-dream-december-9th-2017/

Ghostbusters
http://youaredreaming.org/2017/12/19/ghostbusters-themed-lucid-dream-12192017/

Became a Werewolf
http://youaredreaming.org/2017/12/26/dec-25th-2017-lucid-dream-werewolf/

Video Game Inspired Lucid Dreams:
Fallout 3 Las Vegas
http://youaredreaming.org/2017/12/23/fallout-inspired-genre-specific-lucid-dream-dec-23-2017/

Borderlands 2 inspired GSLD
http://youaredreaming.org/2018/02/19/feb-18th-2018-todays-lucid-dream-epic-journey-art-dreaming/

And that is just the tip of the iceberg. Plenty more where those came from and many more to come. Lucid Dreaming is a gift that keeps on giving once mastered.

Here is my Progressive Guide to Lucid Dreaming:
http://youaredreaming.org/2017/08/19/progressive-guide-lucid-dreaming/

The best part, everything I have written and published on-line with regards to dreaming is all free, I’ve never monetized my website and think of what i contribute as being open-source. If it helps someone achieve lucidity, that is my reward and it has for many people so mission accomplished. If you haven’t yet hopefully I’ve inspired you and given you something to look forward to experiencing when you sleep.

Feb 20, 2018 – Thanos and Friends Lucid Dream.

I’ve had a couple of dreams with Infinity Stones and the entire Infinity Gauntlet but todays Lucid Dream adventure was staring Thanos, the Mad Titan himself with the full Infinity Gauntlet and he looked absolutely fantastic, was a fun dream character.

The dream starts off where I am watching TV with my daughter. I see a show called Thanos and Friends, and it is a cartoon animated series staring Thanos, complete with Infinity Guantlet but he is friendly. There are two characters I recognize Rocket Raccoon and Groot but others I do not.

I’m watching the show and Thanos, Rocket and Groot are all at this Alien Daycare babysitting a bunch of Skrull children and other alien races. Right away I am laughing at how stupid this idea for a show was yet how funny it was. I am watching in disbelief thinking how badly could Marvel sell out a character just to cash in on some series. And thinking in a dream is a good thing, because it leads up to the reality-check.

I’m talking to my daughter and telling her Thanos is a super-villain who wields infinite power, he would be babysitting kids with a weapon of mass destruction on his hand. But then I start to think about why I was with my Daughter at my Mom’s place watching TV when it wasn’t the weekend. Would Marvel really do this to Thanos? Or maybe something else is going on… like I am dreaming.

It can be tough to break that immersion, the general dream setting was a near perfect replica of my Mom’s living room except the TV show was really the only detail indicating that I was dreaming at all. Sitting in a recliner it was very easy to stabilize and focus on lucidity as I was already in a very connected and relaxed position.

I become fully conscious and the animated cartoon is playing but now I love it, I understand why it’s not based on actual reality yet the quality of the animation and characters was so fantastic. I had to have a closer look so I focus on the TV and project myself into the story. This is a very old trick I’ve used in dreams switching from one dream environment to another. Just a focus technique.

Now, how can I describe how amazing and cartoony the dream reality became. Dream reality is a master of simulating color, form, texture, sound even other sensory states. The first thing I did was stare at Thanos checking out the details, even to the point where he said, “Stop staring at me kid, you are creeping me out.”

There is this uncanny perfection in the dream simulation where the dream character looks identical to Thanos, not from the new Avenger’s Infinity War movie trailer, but with the way he looks in the comics with a much larger mouth and teeth. His skin was more purple, but it was like CGI graphics with a style filter giving more rich color to the suit. But the Animation quality, his speaking and movements were just perfect.

I didn’t want to really get drawn into the dream drama because let’s face it. How often does one get to see Thanos rendered in near perfect reality simulation that only a dream can provide? This was my first time and I guess the fanboy in me knew to soak it up and capture the moment. He was very muscular, I followed his shoulder down to the arm to the Infinity guantlet where I saw the colored gems gleaming with energy, having a very nice outer glow effect to them.

Being lucid, aware I was dreaming to now be in this cartoon themed dream was just magic, pure magic. Rocket and Groot also had a animated style to them so they didn’t look like how we see them from the Guardians Movie. Rocket had more brown hair that clumped and again this is because the dream took his Comic book appearance keeping in theme with a more comic book style. I almost didn’t recognize him but referencing how he looks in comics that is exactly the source my subconscious used.

Groot as well had a comic book simplicity to him but all three looked very real as they were in full 3D walking around as if they lived and breathed in the dream environment. The Skrull kids looked very cartoony, and they were basically driving Rocket crazy by getting into everything and doing the opposite of what he was asking him. His voice did sound like the Movie version obviously, my subconscious used that reference because it is all I would be familiar with.

Thanos goes and sits down on this chair which is kind of like his throne and the Skrull kids start to climb up and get all over him. Rocket and Groot are all trying to figure out how to calm the kids down.

Then Dr. Strange appears with some great special effects right before Thanos. He accuses Thanos of still being the Mad Titan, “I don’t know what game you are playing Thanos, but running a daycare is not one of them.”

Rocket yells out, “He’s a good guy now, has gone totally legit!”

Groot says classically, “I am Groot!”

I stand there looking at Dr. Strange thinking this dream just got even more surprising epic. Then Strange decides to test Thanos by using magic to do these humiliating yet funny things to him. He casts a spell, and Thanos suddenly has blond curly hair like Goldie locks and this crazy little collor with a bow tie. He get’s this look on his face of confusion and sees the golden curls and tells Strange to stop it. I see him flex his infinity gauntlet and he makes the hair vanish.

Strange then casts another spell and makes Thanos head shrink into literally the guy’s head from Beetlejuice with the big eyes and funny mouth. Again Thanos says “Stop it!” used the glove to restore himself and the tempo picks up and as fast as Strange and change his appearance, always the head and always funny Thanos would say “Stop it!”

This back and forth goes on and I am just killing myself it looks so damn funny. Finally, Thanos says “Enough” and he turns Dr. Strange into a cartoon child version complete with the Strange’s beard and he plots down with the rest of the kids, his outfit too large and the Eye of Agimoto now touching the floor with the chain making it look like bad ass bling.

Thanos then says to Strange, “How do you like it.” and Rocket and Groot are laughing. Baby Strange starts to cry, cartoon tears shooting out each side of his eyes and the crying Rocket and Groot are now annoyed by the crying.

I look at Thanos and I laugh. “You can conqueror the Universe with that thing and instead all you wanted to do was setup a daycare?”

“Someone has to take care of the kids.” he tells me. And I just laugh, it was too much. The comedy, the cartoon quality of the dream was just over the top.

Thanos looks at me then gives me this smile and unzips himself as if he was wearing a suit. This energetic being slips out and folds up the skin. Bops me on the nose and says, “Nice dreaming with ya! I gotta split.” and leaves.

Everyone packs up and leaves, I follow after Dr. Strange but he shifts into this guy with red hair walks down a corridor that now becomes just normal looking every day reality. The corridor opens up to a sidewalk and we are outside.

“You know Thanos could have kicked your ass with that Infinity Guantlet.” I tell the now normal looking person.

“Yeah, who cares it’s just a dream kid.” he says as he blows me off and walks away like it’s no big deal.

Then I stop and laugh, yeah it is a dream. I decide to explore the dream now that it looks more like waking reality. I walk into this pub, sometimes I like to have a drink or eat food in my dream. There is a nice bar with a bar tender and tables and chairs.

I look for a chair and as I walk past a table I see a very old friend from my high-school days sitting with some people at a round table. I walk over and say Hi. He is both surprised and happy to see me. He gets this big smile on his face and stands up, shakes my hand.

“Of all the people I never expected to bump into.” he says. “What have you been up to?” he asks.

“You know, the same old work, being a dad and of course dreaming. Always dreaming.” I tell him.

He asks, “You are still into that dreams stuff hey?”

“Well, considering this is a dream I would have to answer yes.” I tell him. Which immediately makes his company and himself a bit weirded out.

They start to argue with me that it’s not a dream. This one lady says, “What is he talking about? This can’t be a dream!”

The other man says, “He’s probably crazy.”

I pick up this glass candle holder from the center of the table and I smash it down on the table, it hits hard I could feel the solidity and even the vibration in my hand. The glass edge chips and even dents the table.

“What the hell are you doing?” yells the lady.

I pick it up and smash it down hard a second time. “This is a dream!” the glass hitting the table makes a loud cracking sound and now other patrons in the Pub are looking at me.

They tell me to stop it but I wind up and smash it down as hard as I can and say, “This is a dream! I should know, I’m the one dreaming it!”

But they still are not convinced, so I resort to some more classic tactics. I put my hand on the table and grab a steak knife. “If this wasn’t a dream, I wouldn’t be willing to stab my hand in real life to prove it.”

They tell me it’s not a dream and not to do it. “Hey man, I don’t know what you are on but stop before you hurt yourself.” complains my friend.

I touch the tip of the blade between the tendons of the middle and ring finger. Now, unless you have super-real dreams where you feel pain this isn’t always as fun as you think. I am at a point in the quality of the dream realism where I now feel bone to near accuracy which is something my dreams never had, used to be a give away but I could feel the sharp tip of the knife pressing metacarpal bones. My hand in that dream felt as real as my hand in waking life. This is the deep level of immersion I have come to know from lucid dreaming which makes breaking it and challenging it to prove a point always worth it.

I stab the knife down full force stabbing through the metacarpals into the wooden table. And I could feel the blade pass through my hand. They all scream out in shock and disbelief. I tell my friend to take a closer look, “See the knife went right through my hand. It has to be a dream.”

“That doesn’t prove it’s a dream, it just proves that you are nuts!” he tells me.

“Watch closely.” I tell him as I pull the handle of the knife and remove it from my hand. The knife even has resistance being stuck in the wood. But as the knife is fully removed my hand shows zero sign of damage, no blood. I hold it up and show it too him.

“If it wasn’t a dream I would be bleeding all over the place. Not a scratch on me!” I tell him,.

“No way! NO FUCKING WAY! This is a dream?” he explodes with enthusiasm. “Didn’t that hurt?” he asked.

“Yeah, kind of feels like a knife is passing through the hand but it’s no big deal.” I tell him. “Go ahead, give it a try.” I pass him the knife and put both my hands on the table one over the other and tell him. “Just stab it through both hands, it’s a dream so it’s not as bad as you think.”

He stabs the knife down into both my hands and this time I feel nothing, the knife blade actually disappears as it touches my skin like one of those fake knives. He looks at the handle and says, “The blade is gone?”

I still have my hands on the table and the lady who was all in dream denial grabs a knife and stabs my fingers almost cutting the tip of the ring finger off. And that one hurt, I got a very sharp pain and this time blood came out. She panics because it doesn’t heal. “Oh my god! I’m so sorry! I didn’t think it would cut you!” she tells me.

“Don’t worry about it. It’s a dream, sure they can be very real but I won’t wake up with a cut on my hand.” I look at the damages and it hurts but I don’t mind. The finger has a large gash and I push it closed and then focus my attention of simply fixing it and it returns to normal.

I show her that it’s fixed, “See, aren’t dreams fun? It’s like a big game of pretend.”

I decide that I wanted to something else kind of wild and extreme so I walk over to the bar tender and ask him for his most expensive bottle of alcohol. He gives me this whiskey in this fancy bottle. It is flat on one side, but the back side is curved. I open the lid and proceed to chug the whole bottle down, the bartender freaking out over it.

It tastes like whiskey but has a sweetness to it. Also, there is no burning sensation or effect. I’ve never chugged a full bottle of hard alcohol so no idea what that would feel like but I know by doing a couple of shots it would probably suck in real life.

I put the bottle down on the counter and tell the Bartender to relax, “It’s only a dream!” I tell him.

“You have to pay for that!” he tells me.

“What with monopoly money?” I reply. “You think you’ll even be here when I wake up?”

“No with cold hard cash!” he tells me. “That will be $1,500!”

I take the bottle and close the lid then focus on it causing it to fill up, he watches in amazement as the bottle starts to refill, at first it looks like whiskey but then these colorful strands start to appear and it becomes like a Universe with glimmering stars and nebulas. It was actually really beautiful to look at.

“How? How in the hell did you do that?” he asks.

“Like I said, this is just a dream. I’m just having fun.” I reply.

“I can’t sell this! You still have to pay!” he demands.

I smile like a magician snap my fingers and a $100 dollar bill in US currency appears in my hand and I give it to him. Then I do it again and another appears which I flip his way. Then I shake my hand and a stack of $20 dollar bills appear and he complains that it’s too many bills and just wants $100 dollar bills.

I try to make another bill but my focus is shifting. “Sorry mate, will have to pay you later can’t focus.” I tell him.

“Ah you are finally feeling drunk!” he tells me.

“No worse, I am waking up!” I complain so I try to stabilize right away and stop engaging the dream. I put both hands on the counter and resist. There are outside noises, roomate has returned with his dog and they are right by my door.

It is crazy, the dream starts to destabilize and I fight like hell to stay in the dream. I feel like I am being stretched into infinity, real intense effects and it’s hard to focus but finally I snap back at the bar and am still in the dream.

This is a very tough fight, I don’t always win this one because the body when awake usually snaps me back so fast but I have been finding if I really cling to the dream and by some act of pure willpower I can resist returning and the body just drops back to sleep. So I won this round.

But the effect on the dream was noted, the bar had changed slightly and the bartender disappeared. I was all alone. The pub was empty, even my friend was gone. I was a bit disappointed in that, kind of liked how things were role-playing.

I go outside and walk on the street. There is some commotion in the distance and I walk over to see what was going on. There was this female news caster holding a mic by some abandoned building.

I couldn’t hear what she was saying and was interested so why not fly over and check it out. I lift up and start to fly over and land right beside her. Her camera man screams, “Jesus Christ that guy just flew over to her!”

She is all blown away! “Did you just fly here?” she asks. It never get’s old when dream characters role-play real-life when in reality it’s a dream.

“Yeah, I wanted to hear what you were reporting on, so I flew over.” I tell her.

“How did you fly? Do you have a rocket?” she puts the mic to my face and starts interviewing me, her camera man focusing.

I start to laugh, “No, this is a dream. You can fly in dreams you know. It’s not a big deal.”

“Wait what? You are telling me this is a dream? It can’t be!” she asks now all confused.

“Well, if it wasn’t a dream, I couldn’t fly over to talk to you now could I?” I nudge her arm and wink.

“But this can’t be a dream, it’s real!” she points out the obvious.

“Yeah, dreams are a type of reality. They have realism. That’s why I love to dream them.” I reply.

“How did you discover this?” she asks.

“I’ve been at this little game for about 30 years now. I love it. I get to be here, my body gets to sleep. It’s a win win!” I tell her.

“Can you show me more? What can you do?” she asks.

“Anything really.” It’s night time in the dream so I make it instantly day time. “See, just change it at a whim.”

She drops back in shock and awe. “Oh my God! You just made it daylight!”

I laugh, “Yeah, like I said. It’s a dream, so no big deal.”

Then she changes the questioning very unexpectedly, “So… if this is a dream, then I can have sex with you.” and she just throws her self at me. I was like, not expecting that but really I should have.

She starts to kiss me and I am resisting and push her back.

“Don’t you like me?”, she asks.

“No, it’s not that I just wasn’t expecting that!” I told her.

She stops being so aggressive and takes my hand and rubs her finger down my face and bites her lip. “But, I really like you.” she tells me. Well here I was in a moral crisis, a beautiful model quality woman with long blond hair and beautiful red lips and me without a girlfriend in real life. It wasn’t a hard choice let me tell you. The rest you can fill in with your imagination suffice to say I could smoke a whole cigar after that dream. Woke up with a smile on my face.

Total time to sleep: 1 hour 30 minutes. Not bad for a nap.